Intense thoughts. Feeling hopeless.

[Loz_3647]

I feel like I can't deal anymore and I'm having intense and dark thoughts. I feel alone and so hopeless. There doesn't feel like there is a point anymore. I can't take it. I've reached the end of myself. There's no help for me. No where or no one left to turn to. The end is near.

[Historylover]

I feel exactly the same @Loz_3647. Sending best wishes.

[hanami]

Hi @Loz_3647 

Welcome to the forums, it takes a lot of courage to reach out for help. You've taken a good step in protecting yourself and seeking support.

You are sitting with some really emotional stuff there and I am hearing how helpless and alone you feel.

I want to share with you this suicide prevention resource

It talks about Safe Haven cafes and there are some online support groups as well.

There are also the crisis numbers that you can call if you feel you're unsafe.

Lifeline 13 11 14  
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659467  
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

If you’re open to a 1-on-1 chat with a counsellor the SANE help centre is open from 10am-10pm Mon-Fri and the number is: 1800 187 263. All our counsellors are trained to provide a non-judgemental and confidential session with the opportunity to explore your challenges and provide strategies for longer-term help.

I'm wondering if there is anyone nearby who you can call to talk to? It could be a family member, friend, neighbour or anyone you trust. Or one of the helpline numbers listed in the link above.

I hope the resource I gave the link to will help you.

We are here to listen and you are not alone. Please check in with us and let us know you're ok. I'll also send you an email.

Take care and stay safe

Hanami  

[Loz_3647]

I've spoken to Beyondblue, Lifeline and Suicide Call Back. They can't help me and that's been made clear. Nor can my GP, case manager, the hospital.  They act like they want to help, but then they don't. I've gone round and round in circles. Then in the last 3-4 weeks, I've stopped talking about how I'm feeling. I did however speak to my psychologist yesterday.  She was concerned and did contact emergency services, but because I know they can't help and don't really care, I told them I'm fine. But truth is, I'm not. Life seem pointless and there's no actual purpose. It's clear there is no help. They say not to suffer in silence, but that's what everyone wants. They don't want to hear about it etc. The system etc is one big joke. There's going to come a time where I end it and no one will know. Because I'm done trying to get help. I don't really know why I posted on here....I guess because it is a really crap place to be when youre alone and nobody actually wants to feel this way.

[Historylover]

We're in the same place with the same experiences, @Loz_3647. And we're not the only ones. 

[Loz_3647]

Bloody sucks, hey! I don't know how 'mental health professionals' can ignore people, people like us, and the terrible pain and hurt we feel. I'm so over it.

[Emily82]

Life is challenging.. i hope you get some sunshine on your bones.. distract yourself from your thoughts.. fill your day with tiny acts and your favourite things.. try your life 10 minutes at a time... Or try help someone else out in your day with some compassion.. be a rainbow to someone else's cloud.. take care.. because we care about you.. and we need to stick together us people with mental health.. do one kind act for you or someone else each day

Take care remember a thought is just a thought.. they come and go just like clouds and waves..

[Historylover]

It more than sucks @Loz_3647. It's just not bloody fair. They don't give a damn. Some 'services' go through the motions and others don't even do that. They're fine.

[Jynx]

Hey @Loz_3647 I thought I'd stop in and also offer a bit of support. I want you to know that I really hear you when it comes to feeling like the MH system has let you down. You're certainly not alone in those feelings, and I genuinely believe that massive changes are needed in order to really truly provide sufficient support to the folks who need it most. The 'too unwell to function, not unwell enough to get sufficient help' narrative is alarmingly common, and you'll find many folks here who have been in a place quite similar to where you are. It's why I'm proud to be part of SANE, because I know myself and my colleagues truly do wish to be that change.

I wanted to speak to the fact that you are here. Like you said, you're not quite sure why you decided to post but perhaps something within you felt a sense of hopefulness? Maybe there is still part of you that is fighting to find connection and through that, a sense of hope and meaning. I believe in the power of connection, and I really truly hope that you are able to feel heard and feel held in this space.

I might be a stranger to you, but I for one am glad you chose to speak up on the forums today. I am someone who vehemently does not want you to suffer in silence. And I DO want to hear your story, if you're up for sharing. Our team here are concerned about you, and we will do what we can to support you and be with you through this truly dark time. 

💜💚

[Loz_3647]

Thank you for your reply. I can hear your genuineness. However, there is nothing you can do or anyone else for that matter. It's hard to deal with but it's the truth. I have tried all avenues to get help and nothing comes of it. Same outcome every time. I know 'it's a process' and 'things take time'...but I don't have time....