I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’m back in bed.. 😞 I’m just so tired. 

Im having trouble with some thoughts..

I feel like everyone is going to leave me. On here and in life. Not that there is many in life anyway. I kinda feel disconnected and inevitably alone. Isolated even. 

[Ru-bee]

Those are some really difficult feeling to be grappling with @Captain24 

Just so know, we're not going anywhere.

What might help you feel a bit more connected right now?

[Captain24]

Its really unnerving @Ru-bee. The feeling that everyone is going to leave. That nobody wants to know me. I feel rejected and unwanted. I’m scared to connect incase it’s true. 

[Ru-bee]

That would make it really scary to connect @Captain24 I completely get that.

Is there anything that's happened that has brought up these feelings today? 

[Jynx]

Hey @Captain24 - totally understandable feeling. Trauma survivors often have this impending sense of doom - the ol' 'waiting for the other shoe to drop' vibe. It's so hard. 
We all want you here though, I can promise you that. I know it's hard to believe that's true on the days when your brain is being extra mean (which really is just your brain trying to protect you from the pain of the dropped shoe), but I assure you that we are here for you no matter what. 

[Captain24]

Nothing has happened. It’s just come over me . @Ru-bee. Are you going to ban me? 

[Captain24]

I’m scared @Jynx 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 No ban plans darlin. Never even been discussed. 

[Ru-bee]

Not only was it not discussed, the thought of a ban never even entered my head @Captain24 

I'm sorry this is coming up for you so strongly right now and it's okay to not quite know where to go from here

[Captain24]

Are you sure? It would be one way to get rid of me @Jynx. @Ru-bee 

Im really freaking out. I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack.