I can’t cope

[Jynx]

@Captain24 I can really hear how much your brain is trying to convince you of this hun. 

Take some slow, deep breaths. Remember your breath is your first weapon against dysregulation.

Firstly, we give multiple warnings before we ban someone. Secondly, we don't want to get rid of anyone, ever. Bans and account pauses are never decisions made lightly, and always with ongoing conversations with our members to ensure they're still safe and supported along the way. 

Trust me when I say, you would KNOW if you were 'in the crosshairs' or 'on thin ice'. We would tell you. And we wouldn't say it like that lol it would be a very gentle, validating conversation. One you have never needed to have with us before!! So why would it start now? 

Nothing about you, without you. You are not going to be blindsided by a ban, it's simply not how we operate. 

[Captain24]

I’ve had an account pause before without any discussion. @Jynx 

Im trying to breathe but im crying. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 Sorry to hear that hun, I can totally undstand how it's got you feeling so worried. 

I don't have magic words for you. I can reassure you till the cows come home but right now it seems like your brain won't let you believe me when I tell you that you are welcome, wanted, and not in any way in trouble. 

I think it's up to you to remind yourself of these things... but for now it's okay to be scared, to cry it all out, to let yourself feel your Very Big Feelings. 

I am not going anywhere. I'll pop by in halfa to check on you ok?

[AuntGlow]

@Captain24, I understand this feeling so well. Please know you are not alone; we are all here with you and not going anywhere. 💗💕

[Jynx]

@Captain24 

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How you going hun?

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Captain24 just wanted to check in before I finish for the evening. I hope you've been able to catch your breath a little bit, we're all here for you 💜

I'll speak with you again soon okay

[Captain24]

I’m calming down slowly @Jynx @Ru-bee @AuntGlow. I’m still shaking though and my heart is beating out of my chest. 

I don’t know where all this has come from. This feeling that everyone is going to leave won’t dissipate. 

[AuntGlow]

I am glad to hear this @Captain24. What is helping?

It sounds like something really triggered you - and hey, that's okay. 

Are you feeling extra tired or generally overwhelmed today? 💛

[Captain24]

I have my babies and I’m trying to breathe through it. @AuntGlow. 

Im really tired. I went and had a nap and woke up with a start and the feeling just came. I have been feeling very uncertain but not like this. 

I don’t mean to be needy. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 you can be needy, you are a human and you have needs. One of them is safety, another is social connection. Both of those feel threatened right now so your brain is probably caught between seeking to fulfill those needs ('needy behaviours') and trying to protect you from the pain of not getting them met (but if I'm needy, I'm a burden). None of this is unfamiliar to us, so it's okay hun - we get it. You can be needy ok?? I'd prefer that to you suffering in silence.

Pix and Jett being all snuggly?