@Former-Member I'm sorry to hear you're having a tough time. When we're experiencing a mental health crisis it can feel like there is no way out, but with the right treatment plan things will get better. You deserve to be here, and you deserve the best treatment plan for you. You clearly have a strong support network of people who love you dearly, they want you to get well and they understand that in order to do that you have to disclose how you are truly feeling. It can be really scary to vocalise how we're really feeling, especially when you don't know what course of action will be recommended to you. However, as you have insight into your mental state - it is unlikely that you will be admitted to hospital against your will, care must be provided in the least restrictive form as per the principles of the Mental Health Act. You will likely receive outpatient or community treatment, you will create a safety plan with your nominated support persons incase you are in crisis (a danger to yourself, or others) - in which case you will be given direction as to when or where to present to for emergency care. Should your situation change, and you lack insight into your illness - or are deemed of substantial risk to yourself (or others) then it is possible that you may be put on an involuntary treatment order - but this is definitely not the first point of call for treatment. You have the right to make decisions regarding your treatment interventions, and there are mental health advocates and the Mental Health Tribunal who are there to ensure any actions taken by clinicians under the Act are legally and ethically just, in the least restrictive form, and within your best interest (and within the recovery based framework).
I know it is very scary, but the only way for your doctor to determine your mental state is for you to disclose everything. I myself was in crisis in July and was taken to the MH hospital for emergency care, I was adamant that I was not going to receive inpatient care because it was too scary for me at the time and I thought it would make my condition worse (even though I was at somewhat significant risk of suicidal actions). The psychiatrist and clinical nurse specialist at the facility took the time to come up with a care plan I could follow as an outpatient, they called me daily to check in and see how I was doing - and they (with my consent) discussed my treatment plan and safety plan with my partner and my family incase my situation escalated. I am so thankful to them, and so thankful that the mental healthcare delivery system puts the patients rights and preferences at the forefront of their practice - collaborating with the consumer to formulate an appropriate treatment plan.
If you are concerned, you can download the Mental Health Act 2014 Consumer Handbook and read through your rights and options provided. It is written by people with lived experience of the MH system, and gives some guidance as to what functions can be performed under the Act.
You are strong, you are loved, and you deserve to be here - trust that your GP will listen to your needs without judgement, and will act in your best interest.
Hope this helps!
