I just rang my nurse and the GP hasn’t rung. I did have a good chat though and she said I sounded a little better.
I had a fantastic night at work and had the confidence to speak up when I needed to. That’s a big step forward for me at the moment. I also explained to my current boss that I am struggling with my MH and that’s why I’ve been unreliable lately. I didn’t go into any detail though. He was quite supportive.
Today I’m feeling agitated and anxious as I have a work function that I am going to tonight. That is a massive step for me as I have social phobia in my ‘normal’ moments and at the moment it is way out of control. I can’t even hold a conversation. I’m going with a friend as I couldn’t go on my own and we are actually meeting up an hr before to catch up. I think it’s the catch up that has lifted my spirits a little.
I also reached the optimum dose of the mood stabilisers on Tuesday so that maybe helping.
I don’t feel as defeated and hopeless today and I feel safer than I have in a while. My only hope is that I can hold onto it and not fall back into a heap when tonight’s catch up is over.
