Need to vent

[Snowie]

Sounds like it was a tough session @BlueBay 

I am glad you were able to talk to your psych about all of these things.

It must be hard with your mum and not being able to see your Dad.

I hope you can do something nice for yourself tonight.

[BlueBay]

Hi friends @Snowie @tyme @hanami @Eve7 @MDT @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @Bow and others 

didn't sleep well 

Keep  having horrible dreams of my mum and me 

still have a headache which comes and goes and pain in mt stomach 

I’ve just come home from a walk down the beach 

cold but nice 

had to get out of the house 

Need to clean house but really can’t be bothered 

wish I could stay in bed but we have open house 

I’m feeling really paranoid that neighbours are talking about us 

I don’t want to see anyone 

thoughts of “I don’t care anymore”

”it’s too hard to keep going”

[Bow]

Hey @BlueBay  you can do this. You’ve done it before. 

What time is your open house? Can you plan to do something nice and relax a bit after that is done? 

Im kinda jealous you live so close to the beach. I’d love to be able to walk along the beach every day.... think my daughter would too. There is something so calming and peaceful about the beach. Do you find that? 

🎀

[BlueBay]

hey @Bow the beach does make me feel good

it's raining now and poss all day

so it's a netflix day i think

hubby is out all day so i am home alone

i don't know anymore

i am exhausted from cleaning each week

i am exhausted that i have to look at our bank accounts before i go to the shops for anything

i can't live like this

it's not the way to live

i am tired

i have washing to do later once the open house is finished; can't have the clothes inside when people come

i wish it would sell very very soon

i am so anxious, scared of losing everything because we have no money

i can't think right now

i will go and make a coffee

i really don't know why life has to be so damn hard

what have i done to deserve this hard life

i know others are having a hard life too and i don't want to sound like it's just me

because i do empathise with others who are struggling, i totally get it

[Bow]

Sounds rough @BlueBay  hope things change for you real soon. 

[tyme]

Sounds so tough @BlueBay . I hear you.

Do you like being home alone? Or do you like having people around? We're all different - hence I'm asking.

I'm here for a chat if you need one. And of course you can have an e-hug too!

tyme

[BlueBay]

thanks @Bow @tyme 

it's strange because i do like being home alone at times but then i hate it  because i feel so lonely and alone.   

i think i am more of a home body but then i do like to catch up with a friend for coffee too.  

i have been thinking about other 'things' to sell online with the baby stuff i make

so i decided to try some hampers - father's day, mother's day, relaxation, tea/coffee etc

i thought i would start with a father's day hamper as its in september and promote it 

i come up with ideas but then i squash them so quickly, thinking no i can't do that, no one will buy them.

but i should just try

trouble is though you need money to purchase little things to include in the hamper. maybe i could buy a few things each fortnight until i have enough for one 

need to search where i can buy some package boxes to fill with the items. and cost, i need to see how much these boxes are.

[tyme]

You've got some great ideas there to keep you busy, it sounds. I like your ideas. I think Fathers' Day is coming up soon. @BlueBay 

Have you every thought of making gourmet cookies? Mars Bar/Nutella filled cookies?

tyme

[BlueBay]

no haven't thought of making cookies before @tyme 

sounds delicious though 

i could do some for the hampers 

good idea xx

[tyme]

I had a friend @BlueBay , and every time they visited, they bought a box of cookies. They were chocolate filled cookies. You microwave it for a few seconds and the choc oozes out.

Otherwise, have you ever tried a hot choc bomb? It a goodie-filled chocolate shell that you put in a mug, then add hot milk. When the shell melt, the marshmellows, chocolate flakes etc melt also.

Otherwise, cake pops for kids' birthday parties 🙂

tyme