I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hopefully @Bow If I can have more days wired like today that would be great. 

[tyme]

So true @Captain24 ,

Knowing the signals and signs will certainly help you to be proactive.

I know that was certainly the case for me during my recovery.

And sometimes it's good to talk through these signs with others who may notice things that we don't.

tyme

[Captain24]

OMG.. I really need to get some sleep but I just can’t switch off. I have a big day tomorrow. I need some rest. 

[tyme]

I was thinking the same @Captain24 ! I think we'll just need to clock off together now.

Goodnight. Catchya later!

[Captain24]

Goodnight @tyme . At this rate my house will be extra clean. Lol

[Captain24]

Just venting. 

The highs from yesterday comes with lows today. Apparently this is going to keep happening. So tired and exhausted. All hope is fading fast. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

What's happening for you today? Your house super clean?

I did some washing today. It was freezing here. -1 degree..... frosty everywhere.

Hope you had your sweetened condensed milk today 🙂

[tyme]

@Captain24 , have you spoken to your community mental health team since you last wrote that the GP organised the support?

[Captain24]

Nah @tyme my kitchen needs some work! Lol.

About to have my condensed milk now. 

I saw the MH team nurse on Monday. It was very clinical. She then rang me Tuesday after speaking to the psychiatrist and wanted to admit me but I said no. So she has to call me everyday.

I went to the gp today and have to drop the dosage of my meds but she also added another one. Yesterday’s buzz wasn’t a good sign apparently.

Then I went back to the MH nurse and I have a psychiatrist appointment next Thursday. My safety with the mood cycles is the biggest concern. 

I just have to hold onto hope. 

Sorry for blurting all that out. I don’t think it should be here but I really needed to release. 

Sorry for constantly being a mess

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

No stress! I hear you and I have been there before, so please don't be sorry. It is good you are letting it out. 

It was only not too long ago I was in a similar place. The mood swings switched by the minute! I was a danger to myself and others. It was more the impulsivity that was the issue. Just unpredictable. 

Meds played a part in recovery, but the biggest part was psychotherapy. Med stabilised me so that I could concentrate and take part in psychotherapy which is where the work was done.

It sounds like you are being looked after by the MH team which is good. I hear it is difficult for you now, but mark my word, the sun will soon shine through the clouds.

Just hold on. And when you feel you can't any longer, let others hold you.

Hugs, tyme

btw, what you are you having sweetened condensed milk with?