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[BlueBay]

Hugs @Former-Member ❤️

this could have been written to my brother. 
exsctly what you wrote

[BlueBay]

Don't know 

as I sit here in pain 

the truth is not known 

my home, my life, my work 

the truth is yet to come 

I'm not sure what will happen at the funeral 

some people I do not want to see 

all I know is that I feel sick 

too much to think of 

to much to do

i don't know thst I'll cope 

I sometimes want my life to go away 

I want it sll to end 

and then I think of little A 

I think I better stay

As it gets nearer to the funeral I'm feeling more snd more scared 

I hope he doesn't come 

I hope none of them come 

[Maggie]

Storms taking over

Dragging me in

Wind blowing through me

Chilled deep within

Sounds of thunder

Crash loud in my head

Fears raging in me

Of what lies ahead

Afraid of tomorrow 

What might it bring

Strength growing weaker

Cant change a thing

Stormy weather 

Is all that I know

Chills of winter

Wherever I go

Battered and broken

Alone in the night

Fears rage within me

I’ll never get it right.

[BlueBay]

Hugs @Maggie  ❤️

[BlueBay]

I don't know what to say 

I don't know what to do 

I'm feeling very blue 

just thinking about you 

you were a good mum 

You were a good nonna 

I'm crying 

feeling very emotional 

I'm anxious scared 

I'm exhausted 

I don't know 

I feel I need to be alone 

I need to go away 

I need time alone 

[Meowmy]

@Maggie hey darling, I often feel alone, at points of life so cruel and difficult, the storms sweep across, all my kindness,efforts trashed upon. I cared and looked after the ones hard as nails. Then only lonely tears are my rewards. I tried to escape, only to the me alone in the storm. Maggie, darling, life long and harsh, thank you for a time we do know each other

[Maggie]

@Meowmy  💜💜💕💕

[Meowmy]

@Maggie hey Maggie, good morning. The storms of last night passed. This morning, the aching and sadness still lingers. Just sitting in little cafe, having first coffee before work. Hope you have a good day. Take good care.

[Meowmy]

Storms come

I just sit with it

Emotions intense

I just bear with them

So much was robbed from me and my life

By him who supposed to be my father

Then

I hope I am angry no more

Because I am now at a place further from his claws

That I am less helpless

[Maggie]

@Meowmy  I hope your coffee helped this morning. May your evening be pleasant. 💜💙💜💙